Jesse's Day

It is hard for me to believe that today marks the fifth anniversary of your death. It feels like only yesterday for me. The love for you in my heart has grown everyday. The journey life has taken me on thus far has been intense. Many highs and many lows, but with God's help and the strength and pure love you have taught me, I continue to grow and move forward along the path. I am reminded of a quote I found, "over every mountain there is a path, although it may not be seen from the valley," by James Robert. This has been so true. That day when I received the news that you were never going to take a breath in this world, but pass straight to the next I found myself empty and bewildered in that valley. I could see no way out. With the help of a Power greater than myself and the program and fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous I have found the path out of that valley. It will take a life time along this path to climb that mountain. There have been times when the path is wide and easy to follow and times when the path seems to completely disappear. It is during those times that I have remembered your strength and reached for all the helping hands extended my way.

Today, I remember your strength, your ultimate sacrifice and love. I renew my commitment to remaining sober as my amends to you. I thank you for watching over us all this past year. Thank you for teaching me the gift of ultimate love and sacrifice. I hold you in my heart today and everyday. I love you little man. Godspeed. Sweet dreams.