Healing

"Healing takes place from the inside out. I had to go to depths of my memory, the core of my soul, and make peace with what I had created. That's right I created it. Whenever we don't do what we need to do, for whatever reason, we create crap. I once thought if I prayed enough, meditated long enough, and demonstrated enough faith, things would work themselves out. I had thought I could live with the pangs of something not being quite right. Thank God I had grown enough to be unable to excuse away any level of dishonesty. Dishonesty was not a part of the nature of the new me...."

Taken from Yesterday I cried: Celebrating the Lessons of Living and Loving by Iyanla Vanzant

This I found to be so true in my life. Those things that I have allowed to come to the surface and have allowed them to heal are now gone. Not that they are forgotten, but that they are healed and no longer screaming to be heard and acknowledged. Those things that I have chosen to keep hidden, to ignor, to push further into the dark corners of my mind, have festered and grown. They have grown into something bigger than if I had just dealt with it in the first place. With each new bit of healing and growth I am learning a deeper level of honesty. Eventually maybe I will reach that place of rigorously honest.