For all the harm you have done me, knowinly or unknowingly, I forgive you as much as I can.
Then begin to send loving-kindness to yourself.
May I be safe from harm.
May I be happy and peaceful.
May I be strong and healthy.
May I live life joyfully
Call to mind the person who harmed you and say the forgiveness phrase:
For all the harm you have done me, knowingly or unknowingly, I forgive you as much as I can.
As I wish myself to be safe, happy and peaceful, so I wish you well.
May you live your life with ease.
When your tension is eased you can say:
I am willing to forgive you, but not yet.
When you do this meditation, it's important to be compassionate to yourself.....But your intention is vital. Each drop of willingness to forgive erodes the resentment.....Forgiveness is a process and occurs in its own time
Forgive yourself for not being able to forgive
I am willing to forgive you, but not yet.
Taken from Heart of Forgiveness by Madeline Ko-i Bastis
I am at this place. I know that I have to go through this stuff in order to heal and move on with life. But that means feeling all those feelings that I spent all this years numbing out from and avoiding. It is everything I can do just to stay in the moment when the feeling come. Every inch of my being wants to run and escape. Doing that will get me no where but the bottom of a bottle and that is a place I really can't go to. So I stay and I survive and I lean on my HP and my fellowship for strength and I know that I will get through this. Thanks to all who are that support. I love ya all.
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Praying for you for strength and GOd's Grace.
Lovingly
Christine
Remembering is painful. Forgiving those memories can be devastating. But when you finally let it go, remember it, feel it, and let it go...then and only then will you know how it feels to be free. So many times we exchange one prison for another, a prison of pain for a prison of abuse. Be free....I know you have it in you.
forgiveness... hmmm I remember the first time I read "The Sermon on the Mount" by Emmitt Fox. There is a section in the end of the book where he breaks down the Lord's Prayer. He talks about the section "forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us..." I never really knew what that meant until I read this. It means that I will be forgiven in the same manner I forgive others.... ruh roh... Reading that really freaked me out to say the least.
Thanks for the great prayers, I am writing them down!
Your post are so insightful and simply wonderful to read. It is almost as if you are talking to me through your post.
For that I thank you.
I see you,
JJ
Thank you for this. Seeing that it can be down is knowing that it can be done by others.
Rex you are definitely in my prayers and I consider you a part of my recovery. This emotional work is so hard... but really it's not any harder than the crap we did when we were using - it just feels harder because we're sober..we're feeling.. and that is necessary for the growth to stick!
Take care of you, Meg
P.S. Can you email me or leave me a note as to what song this is that plays on your blog and who its by? I love it!
Try to stay put and live...so much better then just surviving :)
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